oh man ... i miss this space alot. Guess it contains too many memories for me. i don't think i will delete it away though.  Well.. its a new year thus new beginings. My year started out quite rocky. Started the year crying, sometimes things just dun go the way you want it. if there is something that is constant in life, that would be change. Well, lk said that i chose to start out my year crying. But in a way i feel good that I am able to express myself. Well, crying is a form of release right. Hmm...i guess relationships just mean too much to me. especially the friends i made in cg. Really take up a big part of my life. Well i just wanna say, i feel that the season is not over for any of the close friends that i have beside me. They are so dear to me. and i dun wan to end any or distant anyone of them away from me. But seems like one of them is giving up our friendship that feeling. Well, if you are reading this... i really dun wan you to feel that you are always the bad guy in every situation. I know deep in you that you want the best out of every situation. And you really care alot about my life tt's y you can be harsh at times ba. i dun blame you cos you are being yourself. And I really dun feel that the season is over. I feel that it is just begining. I just hope that you will remember to talk through things with me. cos i really wanna know you better and how you feel. I know things are picking up bit by bit, and i really appreciate the little things that you do . Like practising love languages, being there and all that. At least this time i really can see that you treat me and our friendship seriously and I am really happy. haha Hopefully when this saga is over we will be even closer as friends to pick each other up. I dun wan you to go through this breakthrough alone. i hope you will let me help you. Remember  That i am always here for you and i hope you would'nt distant yourself from me. yeah ? i really love you alot alot. If not i would'nt have cried buckets for you. i really miss times spent with you cos each and every one was significant. Oh my yes i really wanna thank a few ppl in my life for making 2006 such a great year for me.

 

      First of all i wanna thank Cat for lots of things. She is really the best inspiration to me for the past three years. She never fails to be there for me. Encourage me in areas in my life. Though i may not be the best help to her but i am always willing to be by her side. guess i am just too attached to her already.

 

 

SOrry for not updating...

             Been kind of busy these days. Many things have started to circle around me. I have been so busy with life. So busy till i do not know myself anymore. Sometimes i feel like i just have to be strong to carry on. No one was there when i broke down ,no one was there to pick me up this time. I did it all by myself. Sometimes i cant help but to wonder when all this will end. the end days seem so far away to me but to everyone it seems so near. disillusion ? i don't know. But i know i can run this race well , i know that i can reach my vision that is set before me. I know i can and i will do anything to reach it. I will never ever reject my vision anymore. all i want is to run towards it ... thats all i want now. A pure heart and clean hands.

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Hi hi !!!!

            last weekend was such a blast !!!! Emerge was totally good !!!! No i mean awesome !!! The presence was God was so strong through out the four days of Emerge. Woah !!! We supported Motion Effects Crew !!!! as Pamela and Joanne were dancing too!!!

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            Yeah been having term tests for the whole of this week ... I really miss my ps2 and my laptop .... Whahaha after Fri can party already... Hahaha ... So far the tests are quite difficult man ... the lecturers really bring it on ! Its only the term test and it is so difficult le ... Well, really got to study study and study. I told Edmund that my CAD is very bad cos i do it too slowly le ... And he said tt slow is good ... Well i kinda of agree with it le ... Sometimes slow is really good. Like taking slow walks home alone, just taking in everyday slowly. From the noises from people to the sound of rustling leaves and then the soft and light breeze just comes onto your face... I love that alot ... Hahaha ...

 

          I lost a friend when i was way back at sec 4 .... I really miss her alot ... We were not friends because of her bf ... He set up an image which is not me at all ... I remembered that when this had happened ... I fell into a mild deppression ... I really could not accept all those eyes of them looking at me every morning when i went to school. I hated that feeling... And the worse part was tt she scolded me B**** and F*** ... These 2 strong words killed my heart ... It torn me apart .... Really .... We did not talked even on our graduation day ... But the thing she does not know is that i have been reading about her life through her blog ... I read it everyday ... Y ? I dunno y ... maybe i just wished and pray that one day she might remember me and be friends again ... She really misunderstood everything abt me ... The worse part was that she does not trust me at all ... I remember that during that period i cried almost everyday ... hid myself in the library just so that no one will look at me with those eyes ... What really made me broke down was when you confronted me and look at me with those eyes of hatred ... I really miss her ... I can tell you that even though I always tell my friends tt i hate you but i can tell u that i really miss you so very much ... My greatest regret was not talking to you on graduation day ... During this period i really wanna thank my cg mates for always being there for me when I cried ... when i needed a hug ...

         Well enough of sad memories that felt so painful ... Now i am really excited cos tmr's emerge !!! Yay !! the event that i forward to every year .... Yeah ... love it o much .... And the best part is that Shu ling's coming .... Whahaha i am going to emerge with her ... Yayness !!! Yup ok i gotta go practise my CAD now ... see ya

                         

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Hi guys , its been a long time since i blogged. Haha anyway I am really enjoying the company of my cg friends even more this few days. Yup ... I really love them alot. They are all my best friends forever. And nothing can replace them.

Recently, I am getting to know Cat better . I start to know what she is feeling and what she expects from me. I really enjoy her company. Haha, although she always says that she is fat when she is like super thin. Haha . Anyway she is my bestest CgL ever . She is so sweet and kind and very very funny one. She has made so many sacrifices for the CG. The way she thinks for us is really very detailed and caring. I really pray that she will be stuck with me forever . Whahaha what a thought. Anyway ,I love her alot . And I wish all the best for her. Cat, You will always be my best CGL ever. Love ya!!!   

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            Hi back to blog ....

                                         anyway the weekend was great . Rev Dr phill pringle was really good he strengthen my prayer life . love him alot . Anyway i got tests coming up already .... the first one is tmr .... Must pray men ... i also hope my class mates will do well. Hehe ... anyway really got to study hard. I was really upset with my project group .. haiz all so irresponsible ... All don't wan to do the report ... end up I do alone ... I was so sad la .. I thought poly ppl would be  more enthu about stuff but they were not anyway ... hmm somemore there is this guy somemore go and critise my report without even looking at it ... This made my day worse ..If it were'nt for Edmund's encouragement on the night I was doing my project I would'nt have made it through . Shoutouts to Edmund ... Thanks alot :) Hmm anyway I forgive them le ... Well time will tell . These few days I got to know more about my class ppl like Edwin ,Edmund ,Edric ... the triple Ed ... haha new name for them . Then thgat day at kunch the gals were ranking in order of looks for the guys in our class to the worse ... Haha ... can you guess who is at the top and the bottom ? Hehe ... Shh ... cant tell later the guys jealous of each other haha ... but I still don't agree on some of the positioning ... Haha ... will discuss with them again ...Anyway I will be having my keyboard exam soon so guys pray for me ... Oh ya I got into SP choir .... Yeah man ... Ok i got to crash for my test now bye guys ...

 

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        Hi guys !!!!

                           just wanna let u know tt my eyes are better now !!! I don't need to see an eye doc anymore . I know that Jesus is My jehova Raphah !! Thank God love him !!!

                                         Hi, havent been blogging for a long time already . Anyway school was fun for the past week . We took class photos last fri together . Haha ... yups was very fun . I have been able to cope with my modules except Structural mechanics . It is such a pain to study that every Wed .

                             Service was very good last weekend ,Casey Treat is such an amazing preacher . Haha ,after his sermon I began to Have a better view of an  abundant life in God and having a zoe life . yup . Sis Pei min came for our cg this week ,she is so much fun . Haha ,and she has a very nice voice . shout outs to her !! Last week we had pst Audrey in our cg . She helped my team win in the game marketplace . Haha her hearing is excellent .

                              My keyboarding have been improving alot but i am still struggling with my specific intro and i m going to have my worship presentation on week 7 . God help me !! I am going to have my sp choir audi tmr at 12.30 ,i pray tt i get in man . The ppl there are really fun . My maths test is coming up too wah super tense but I have faith in God tt i will be able to pass it .

                               My contact lense got infected or something yesterday ,my eye is better today already . but it is still quite red though and tired . I m going to the optician later on to collect my right eye contact later after school .

                              time really flies , it is going to be half a year already . and EMERGE is coming up once again woohoo !!!! yup this year Pam and Jo got into the dance finals !! Way a go motion effects crew !!!! Dunno if i will get into the preaching challenge . hmm we'll see .

                             Mother's day is coming  already ... I still do not know what to get for my mum ... Hopefully something out of the box ... Haha i am going to get to meet up with Abi and the rest on Sat !! woohoo !!! Haha Yayness man so long never see them already . Oh yes and this week we are going to have a three day conference with pst phill pringle !! I love him man .... such an anointed man of God ,looking forward to him coming .

                               Ok i guess i shall stop here because i got to run off to cad studio !! See ya all . Later

               

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 Hi ,once again i am back to blog an entry...  This week has not been good for me at all because of a few things ...

       A best friend is someone who stays with you in any situation that you may go through .A best friend also gives you comfort in many ways . A best friend is someone that would commend you for the slightest achievement you made. A best friend is someone who just wants to be with you .A best friend cares about every event in your life . A best friend is someone that has seen the ugliest side of you . A best friend is someone who has been through the ups and downs of your life .A best friend is the only one that can tell you the truth about yourself. Have you have a best friend or friends that possess the above qualities ? Have you ever met someone that stay through out your ugliest side of life ? Let me tell you i have experience this . 3 yrs ago i met this bunch of people through another friend ... I did not know that they would become my friends for life ... I have never experience such love and warmth before . At this junction ,  I would like to thank Pamela Choo ! Qian Qi ! Lee Kian ! Dennis ! for all their support all these years . I really pray that you guys would be my life long friends till i breathe my last . I love you guys so much . I would not be the stronger aly if not for you guys . ok well to think of it we did not really quarrel much ya ? But we went through alot of things together as one body . Thinking back ... we really had alot of fun ... I always love Pam for her sweetie pieness and for all her encouraging words ,she taught me how to care nd love others ,she taught me the deeper meaning of alot of things and most importantly she is always there with her outstretched hands when i fall ... she will be there to pick me up . I love qi for her passion and attitude towards her members ,she taught me to be firm in alot of things ,she taught me how to be more open . I love l.k because he taught me things that pam and qi don't . He taught me how to burn more for God ,he always set me on fire to run the race even faster and more firm on ground .We grew up together in the Lord and he has grown from glory to glory . I love den because he always pick me up from the deepest point of my situation and put me back on course. Although the things that you say are straight forward but it cuts straight into my heart as a double-edged sword . Thanks guys once again. but utimately my bestest friend is someone else .

    Hi , i just wanna let u all know that i did not get into CHC choir . i cried for one whole night because of this ... But then i realised that choir had just been my dream ministry never frm the Lord . I have had never asked Him which ministry He wants me to join . From the day i got saved to the days where i begin to slowly unveal my gifts of the Holy spirit to the days i go through trials and tribulations to the days where i feel discouraged to the days i feel happy , He is always with me . I finally realised what it means by making God your lifestyle .

                   Why He does certain stuff that i simply cant comprehend ... But not my will but His be done ... I have trusted Him for so many things before surely this i can go thru ... I dun long to be His perfect daughter but just a servant to Him  , a daughter that can be with Him thru anything that He puts me thru ,whether it is the miry clay or the furnace ... I will run a good race till i breathe my last ...

 

                            Today's entry is going to be short cos i am super tired ... Meeting l.k my buddy tmr again ... Miss him already . I miss pam alot ... Hope she is fine . nite ppl ... 

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         Hi ,..

              it is another new day ... hmm loved school today . we did alot of fun stuff in sch like btm lessons doing microstn ... lol ... Ben is such a baby la singing baby tunes ... regret sitting next to him in the lab ...

lol. but nice guy la i must say . ok the guys in my class are so fun loving la ... i am begining to like them much more each day . hmm vanga gave me a nickname ... alicia keys ... lol. thanks ya! hmm anyway was quite tired ,because i am used to monday being my rest day ... so tired la ... but i still tried to be the best student and friend that i can . after sch i went to the sp choir orientation ... which was super lengthy but got alot of fun ppl there ... glad i joined it ... more souls are going to be saved ! yup ... i love the me now ... open and cherry . just love it !!!

              i went to meet l.k at clementi today ... lol. he is so sweet la wait for me at clementi .. thx ya . anyway had a good talk with him on the way home ... He is so matured now la ... so diff than the l.k i know 3 yrs back . love the new him so so so much more . hmm ,i feel good around ppl like him ... love it . Shoutouts to Pam and Qi too for this area . love them . Anyway i promise l.k that i ill try to accompany him home till he builds rappo with his classmates.     which means i will have to travel to clementi just to meet him and to take a bus home . hmm .. i will really relly try... :)

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    Hi guys!!

                  sorry for not blogging this entry on Easter itself cos i came back late that day . Anyway we had a fun time at church that day . haha .  so here's what happened on sat and sun ...

                 On Sat morning ting^2 and l.k came to my house to help me with the new friends door gift . We had decided the day before that they would come at 10.30 to help me out . but they arrived later than that ... haha. Anyway we had to rush as i had to leave my house at 12 so that i can make it for my keyboard lesson at International Plaza at tanjoing pagar station. woo .. rush and rush like mad ...

                  I quickly locked the door and rushed down to a taxi stand but i decided not to cab down as it would cost alot . so i took a train to Orchard mrt station and took a cab from there . costed me 5 plus ... Because of ting and l.k that i have to cab down . hmm nvm .. i forgive them . haha . sorry i was interupted by my new classmate benjamin ... He was 'secretly' reading it while i was typing it during our break in the com lab . wa .. still got 3 yrs to be stuck with him. haha. but he is always made the victim in my class cos the guys thinks he is handsome . Today i got to know more abt vanga ,an indian guy in my class who is super funny in anything and everything never ever met an indian guy who can joke so much . It is like whenever he speaks everyone laughs ... I dunno y . He is also our class rep haha. so sad Cathleen got tranferred to a yr 2 class ... but i still got ila and shu ling in class with me gonna takephotos with them soon . haha . they r so nice . esp ila . oh ya about vanga ,he can speak chinese and he likes to sing while using the com weird ? haha a very rare character there is in this guy . haha .

                    Ok on sat my keyboard lesson was quite fun ... they taught a few majors and notes . love it looking forward to the next lesson . oh ya then aft the lesson i went to expo by train and q up at the line at 5pm when sv is at 7.30 pm ... no choice la if not how to get good seats ... It seems like after ulf edkman sv i become more hungry for God ... I dun even mind q ing for 2 hrs ... haha anyway the drama was really good those of you who did not come ... you missed something big . yup .. they sang the If i got one millon dollars song . then lk and den keep singing and singing it after ther sv . haha . went for tea refreshments with the new frens that came. super cool ... got to know even more ppl . i love them ... hope they would wanna come back to join my cell . haha .

                   ok it is getting late tmr, i got class tmr at 9am so guys sleep tight and see ya all soon . 'hugs" love ya all !!!

                                                 

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            Sorry guys did not blog for the last couple of days because I was so busy over the weekend. Woo ... So I am gonna make it up by putting up two posts .

          

             Ok last Saturday was so fun .... !!! Me ,Den ,L.k ,Ting^2 ,and Jo all went to the choir audi . Haha ,very fun . We all were coached by someone before we went to the audi . So scared man !! I saw sister Annabelle and Brother Jason both at the same time !! Wah ,could feel God's presence around them .

             We went for a short briefing first ,like where to stand and what we are tested on and so on . When we were told that we had to be tested on pitching. We were like ,OH NO !! ... Haha ,so we practised and practised ...so last minute .LOL . Anyway ,the guy that was coaching us was very funny and helpful . Shout outs to you !! Haha Thank you so much for your help . The songs that were tested were Shine like stars and I could sing of your love forever . Cool rite ? Then two other ladies came over to practise with us too ... They were good man. We prayed a short prayer before going inside for the audi as usual Den led us with the prayer . Haha shout outs to him too !! When we saw team C going in ... we were all singing as many times as we can so that we would not make a blooper . haha . Our coach was so encouraging ,he was telling us not to be tense and that we already pass the audi as long as we went into the room . haha .

               THey first tested us on the praise ,followed by pitching . As I heard my friends one by one getting done with it ,I knew I had to remain calm on my facial expression but actually I was shaking like anything . I had to hold my hands to make sure I would not fall . Haha even my friends did not know that I was so tense . lol . Later on we went to q up for service already . Met Zhi wen at the q .haha . Funny guy la always saying the funniest things . Service was good man . cg n311 had such great revival man ,so many friends came man . Keep it up guys !! Shout outs to qi !!! Good work man . Such a woman of God . WAH !! Haha but for my cg ,Jia you k !! WE can do it one !! If we hunger for growth it will come one . Pam if you are reading this ,slap a hi -five to me in my dreams !! We can one . I have faith in us !!

                Hey guys ,I have uploaded pictures we took on Saturday !!! Including my choir audi number!! Must see k !!! ok I shall stop here . I will continue tomorrow !! Love ya all !!

           

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      Woooooooo..... went out with genie ,xh ,nic and ys today . We had so much fun ... at least I did . Going out with buddies that you haven't seen in months is an experience that is unbelievable . haha . I love you guys ... This is my very first entry on this new blog . I abandon my old one because of bad and hurting memories ,but i assure you guys that this one is going to be good . at least most of the time . Haha .